There are always those fleeting moments during the twilighting of dawn when I'm dressing for work on a payday..when i think fuck it I'm taking the day off and blowing this whole check on the things I want... Then i get that good ole anxiety...damn i got rent, student loans, cellphones, etc. et. al...will i pay everything out of my next check..what if what if what if what if. Then I say to myself..carry yo ass to work..sit at yo desk for the first half hour and pay yo damn bills...Being an adult sucks. Now days after i pay all my bills there's really not alot left..so i end up stashing some in savings and k.i.m. But i thought back to when i was younger and of course didn't pay rent..how i had a job and i know it didnt pay no more than 250 bi-weekly but it seemed I was rich..Now granted it was like 93/94 but damn...You remember what it felt like to just spend your money and not have a care in the world...I suppose it was because u know u had people to cover u if u needed it but when u get to be an adult that feeling is few and far in between. Gone are the days of the total check splurge...now everything is thought out planned and milled over.. *sigh* I think i wanna set my bills up..so sometime in the next few months i can just go and blow some $$$'s on frivolous purchases...it's the spice of life..i mean not just on a pair of shoes or some make up..i mean go all out and go