Fiercely determined to get a good nights sleep...I called in my food order, picked it up straight off the bus. I ate, ironed my clothing for the morning,took a shower,and laid on my bed. I thought to myself, hopefully I'll sleep thru the night...*sigh* that would not be...Not only did i fall asleep around 8...I woke up at 230 and every hour after that..330..430..530...between sleep and wake..i whined..yes i whined about being stuck betwixt the 2..It was ugly...the 1st time i got up..i looked at my phone..checked the email to see if i had company but no...I thought to myself he must've gotten some sleep..curses on him! It was 245 i dozed back off..and it started thee weirdest dream of my adult life...not to be confused with the one from childhood..which was frightening...so the dream goes...me and 2 friends decide to rob a bank..each one of us for various reasons...the dream never revealed mine...So we rob the bank successfully..split the money and go our separate ways...For some reason my 2 friends got caught in H&M of all places! Paying cash for a 1000 bill..yikes! So i see on the news that they were caught..and that at the time they were not looking for any other perpetrators(nice word right?) So i go on the purchase a house i fell in love with and invested the rest...No sooner was i living the high life..i got a letter in the mail from my friends saying that if i didn't come forth they'd rat me out...i didn't respond and the authorities didn't believe them..come to find out they tried to name everyone of our friends because no one wanted to come visit them in jail...i woke up shortly after with a sleep hang over and decided..I'd interpret my own dream..
Major themes being--> Thief(To dream that you are a thief, suggests that you are afraid of losing what you already have. Perhaps you are feeling that you are undeserving of the things you already have. Alternatively, you may be overstepping your boundaries in some situation or relationship.To dream that you are a witness to a theft, indicates that others are wasting and stealing your time, energy, and ideas.),Money (To dream that you steal money, forewarns that you are in danger and need to be cautious. On a positive note, it may mean that you are finally going after or reaching out towards attributes that you associate with things of value.), Betrayal(To dream that you have been betrayed, represents your suspicions about a particular person, relationship or situation. This dream often occurs when you are having feelings of insecurity and are faced with major commitments in your life at the same time.)Bribery (To dream that you are being bribed, suggests that you are easily influenced. Perhaps you are letting others persuade you into doing something you don't really want to. Gather your strength and stand up for yourself.),Buying(To dream that you or someone is buying something, represents your acceptance of an idea, condition, or situation. Consider what item you are buying for additional analysis.) a Home(To see your home in your dream, signifies security, basic needs, and values. You may feel at home at your new job or you finally feel settled and comfortable in a new environment. ), & Friends (To see your friends in your dream, signifies aspects of your personality that you have rejected, but are ready to integrate these rejected part of yourself. The relationships you have with those around you are important in learning about yourself. Additionally, this symbol foretells of happy tidings from them and the arrival of good news. )---So after reading that basic analyst i was like wow!!!! Needless to say i don't wanna analyze not one more dream in this crazy head of mine.

Now to the end this blog on a somewhat hilarious note...this morning as i was preparing to depart the bus..i got a glimpse of a dude on the bus stop i was waiting to get off on. Immediately i knew it was a guy i use to mess with around 1996-1997...when i was heavily into my backpacker/bgirl mode..Me and him would hit the circuit and stay up all night talking..He was a rapper..And I sure did adore dude for what it was...I was living with my granny and she liked him as well..So coming back to reality i looked at his clothing and his face..his overall person..and decided right then i was gonna walk right past him ipod on blast...I just didn't wanna see him in the condition that he was in..and would rather see him as i saw him in my head back in 97..Life certainly has not been kind to him...but we all make our choices.. I just didn't feel like going thru the back and forth of catch up..and the eventual asking of my number which i really didn't wanna give..hahah what am i turning into...My granny...ahahah..certain things she just didn't wanna bother with

I've been asked to model in 2 projects..one a fashion show for hair..the other a photography series that will be exhibited this aug..i think..I've said yes to one but the other..i don't know..it'll be me basically nude in a tube of milk.. :|

It's gonna be like a million degrees today...and the funny shit is..it's one day only...I'm like damn man..last night i could've blew the dust of my AC Unit but i always find a lil tinge of procrastination when it comes to putting it back in the window...I'm one of those people who remove the unit...only because it's an eye sore to me when it's cold out..so i had a fleeting thought this morning to put it in..but i didn't I said fuck it..maybe i can catch a movie or not come in the house till after 8..ahahah..i don't know maybe i'll go home after work and install it...who knows, all i know is when my landlord sees my AC unit in my window all he'll see is $$ signs...I'd much rather the fresh air blowing thru my apt as opposed to the AC but on those stifling days i bite the bullet..Today may be one of those days...or maybe i'll just lounge in my draws and tank top...Even if it was in, my landlord mandates that you turn the AC off when you're not at home which makes no sense because you burn more energy when you keep turning the unit on and off...blah...what's a chick to do? Happy hour right? it's always the answer!

Last night I attempted to watch the game and got very disappointed..it was from the first qtr. that i realized Cleveland is gonna get circles played around them(yes..i saw how crestfallen King James' face looked last night..specially when he wasn't hitting anything)...which made me sad...We were all witnesses to some sadness...Last night i was called a sell out since San Antonio was my fave team from youth..but i also got a pass seeing as how they fell off for a bit before their triumphant return..It's a bit strange being a chick who enjoys watching sporting events...i'll mention me watching a game or something to a female friend or my bestest and they scrounge up their faces...i'm like damn give it a chance...I'm no die hard sports chick and i could stand to bone up on stats and know the players more but i do enjoy a good show of sportsmanship...maybe it's because i played sports growing up..and wasn't much the girly girl but hey...sistas embrace some sports..stop being so closed minded...

Lastly I'd like to speak on social slip outs...Like when you see someone you particularly could live without speaking too any further than hey and hello.. The Scene: Interior Mick O'Shea's me and Dean catching a few drinks..and this dude comes in and Dean has this look on her face like dear god save me...so he realizes it's her because she's growing her hair out natural and has a sewn in weave..so instantly he comes over and immediately hugs on her and hits her with a barrage of compliments..one such gem being "you smell like you took a bath." Fellas is this what's hot in the streets? anyway..ahhahaha I was dying on the inside because we had just gotten our second round when dude got there...She downed her drink with a quickness..i had beer so i couldnt as fast..but i left my beer half drank..which is a sin for me but ah well...he asked did we want another round and i've never seen someone turn down a free drink so fast..."no we gotta go!" and out the door we went..

Speaking of half empty...I was able to ditch the whole 1st Thursday debacle last night thanks to my landlord who talked a whole bunch of nothing only to say nothing and introduce the whole building..i was somewhat pissed because i just knew it was a rent increase or increase period with this raising of bge rates...

Day 5 of my fast...I have modified the fast to meet the needs of my hypoglycemia...i feel good and light as opposed to haggard and lethargic...4 more days to go..yay me..

Oh...A friend of mines that i use to date(think: cool friends..tried romance..his ex loomed in the background crying and beggin to talk.. we weren't getting close..so we parted) had an issue with his girlfriend..He has had my spare set of keys since about 2003 when i asked him to check on my cat (Ella) I think about once a year i asked him to do that and it's on Memorial Day Weekend..No biggy I'm never home..and outside of that we don't hang much..we talk on the phone a few times..nothing romantic..He hits me on aim yesterday and says yo i'mma bring you ya keys..i was like ok and didn't think anymore about it..cause i could give them to Deana who was MIA when i needed her to feed Ella at that time..but anyway..he goes into how his girl says it's not sitting right with her about him having my keys...she's been with him those few times he fed Ella...but what's confusing him is the timeliness of her request..The first thing i thought is..she's doing her dirt..but i tried not to be so cynical..it ain't my relationship...But i was scratching my head like how do u go from wanting to meet me..which she has requested on several occasions then declined..to not feeling comfy since about 2005 when they met..*shrugs* Be consistent sistas..no one likes a bitter bertha....insecurity is a bitch.