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So much to do so little time..sunday I go out of town for a week. I have a million things running thru my head. A million things that need to be done. And on top of that I have to pack. Pack so as not to forget anything, which I always do.

Christmas was nice...i received a few unexpected gifts and a lot of text. I mean a lot of text. I wasn't mad at it...It's nice to be thought of. I went to a few of my friends homes and chopped it up. A few times yesterday I thought about my mom. Just lil xmas blurbs in and out. It made me smile but I couldn't think about it any longer or I would have gotten depressed. In all i'd say i'm extremely blessed.

Ugh...we went to eye bar and it was so not like the vibe at Jin the night before. I really wished the dude had told us what the crowd demo would be like. It was madness..pure madness..It seemed everyone was under 25..well just the chicks..some dudes were young..some were older but..mostly old..the chicks were so loud and rahrah(yes that's the only way to describe it) Like, as I was walking to the bathroom I just knew some drunk bidge would bump me and she'd tried to get brolic...it didn't go like that but I did get icegrilled..we were all disappointed..Nick said something about feeling like the old bidge in the club..but I know we weren't the oldest..moral of the story... check your sources, even hook ups.

As children everywhere are barely sleeping, in anticipation of xmas. I'm awake just thankful for the abundance of things i've gotten this year. Some big, some small but all I'm thankful for. This year more than ever my friends have seen me thru another year without my mother or granny..and that's present enough :)

I spent most of my evening in DC @ Jin. A friend told me of a party going down this evening. This crowd was a lot better than Aroma...that was until a fight broke out. :( Up until that point, the crowd was nice, the music was on point and the drinks were good. I'd just went in the restroom as the fight broke out...but next thing I know a dude was in the bathroom with me...good thing I stalled before I pulled my pants down...we were invited to I(eye) bar tomorrow...we'll see..since thurs..i think i've been in dc hanging out every night..good...since I have missed their nightlife.. :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS BABES!!!!!
ENJOY

SEASON'S GREETINGS!!!!

Seems i've been on an endless ride of holiday parties and dinners. I'm not complaining one bit...but it's gonna make it hard for me to wear my freakum dress with these 5 extra lbs.

This year a few folks are having their holiday dinners..xmas eve. I'm not even mad...because it cuts down on how many houses I need to go to.

The one thing I do love about the holiday's is the decorations and the comraderie..it just draws people closer..at least till new year's day.

Ugh I thought at least the state would pay us early but they didnt..i suppose my check will be in my account on wed as it always is..but here's to wishful thinking..

Sat. me and my homie hit up Aroma..The music was dope but dammit..the people weren't and I found the other Alero location..for the life of me I couldn't picture where it was..but @ Aroma..it must've been seniors night..because it was a lot of old men in sweaters there...we rode around..drove past Modern and called it a night...

I've surmised i'm really getting old..now when I go out and there's nothing to do..i get happy because I can go home and sleep..yay..geritol!

I got the place booked and information is forth coming!!! This is my first venture into event promotions outside of work. It's about financial come uppance in 08. No resolutions, just action. I'm hopin some of you will come out and support ya girl.

I had a ball last night @ Cue Bar. The layout was pretty dope but I was a lil late watching the game...The Steelers mad as hell and they playing like it. Anyway...I whipped up on some ass playing Wii bowling and wasn't able to play ping pong because some dudes had that on lock...i don't play pool and don't pretend too..Last night in an effort to be a good friend I invited a few folks out...but they flaked...i love rolling solo anyway..If this was a peek at what my vacation would be like..it's finna be awesome...

Last day of work and i look like a urban hipster..complete with fashion skull scarf around my neck. I'd been so looking forward to being off for these upcoming 2 weeks. Plenty of travel scheduled, a few side jobs, and more rest. Now how much of that i'll get accomplished is another thing.

Last night I had my first meeting with the dude that I'll be working for doing this party promotion deal. We went to scope out lounges and I believe we actually got one. :) First party is due to roll January 4th. Keep ya girl in your thoughts and prayers.. And for my local folks come out and support !!!

These past couple days I've found that people have been really interested in my upbringing. One would assume I came from a stable 2 family home, nice high schooling and was the president of everything. But that wasn't so...my life was pretty shitty...as i sat with a few friends yesterday, just skimming over my life..one by one their mouths dropped. Can't say I was surprised but ya know it's always something when i tell my life's story. I'm partly who i am because of where i've been.

Namaste.

So i really have nothing to post about so i'll post some pics from some of the holiday parties i went to..

I'm not into typical posey pics..unless it's people

Gift bagsssss..

i love these fresh poinsettas

I call this drink "seasons greeting/yule tide". Can u guess what's in it?

They caught me in the middle of saying something...

Deana kills it every time

See u new year's eve...

That's all folks

Simply having a wonderful christmassss time...(c)Paul McCartney & The Wings

Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...
Coming off of a pre-holiday weekend celebration. I went to NYC for a few holiday parties thrown by close friends. We ended up doing so much running around for the one holiday event that we really didn't go anywhere..(pictures forthcoming)

I defeated my opponent this past sunday and am on my way to the finals for my FF. But I do have some hustlin to do, to maximize my pointage. I'll be conferring with Champ as soon as he breaths at his desk. So Champ if you're reading this...please be prepared to share some kind words and knowledge. :) You're the greatest! For those that don't know I embarked on a Fantasy Football Challenge some 15 weeks ago. In the beginning i was number 7 and I moved up steadily week by week..by week 5 i was number 1..and had been number one up until maybe a week ago..But then the semifinals started..i beat my opponent to retain my 2nd place status..Now I'm going up against thee #1 Stunna in our league..It would be super dope if i took this whole thing..How sweet it would feel bragging to all about, my defeating a league mostly comprised of hating ass menfolk...kiss it!

So the saying goes you never get the one you want because they want someone else...or the one you want never wants you..or the one that wants you is not the one you want. Either way..I kinda have this dude, he's been around for a moment..we briefly discussed him in the RKelly concert chronicles..but as of late dude has been demanding phone pics of me...now normally I wouldn't mind..but I'm not feeling dude..and i know it's not gonna go anywhere...I'm in Bmore..he's in VA...I mean I have my fill of LDR's...being as tho i sorta kinda have a man. *shrugs* Me and dude have only hung out a few times but he's corny man...i mean dude rocks cuffs. Ugh! I know i know be straight but i have...i think men are odd creatures. i think my appeal multiples as i dismiss them...ole sadist!

I saw a dope dark movie this weekend...It's called Perfume

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Manhaviors on a tewsday...one day I was over a homeboys house just chillin. We're in there dying laughing..gone out of our minds. Listening to music and playing scrabble. He went in the kitchen, and yelled for me to retrieve something for him off of his bookshelf in the living room. It was a card or something but he didn't tell me where exactly it was so he told me to peruse around for this "phantom card." Now while looking for this card i found some nudies of random chicks. Of course i looked and i just chuckled because of a few things. 1. These weren't like digicam pics he printed himself..someone had a disposable camera and sent these to a developer..which is double yikes..since these tits and cooches were seen by all. 2. The chicks looked very uncomfy, like if they took the pic it got them cool points..but they just looked scared like deers in headlights..but clearly they were posed 3. This bamma had them shits in his living room..all willy nilly..like it didn't matter. and that said how he felt about said chicks 4. Sister! wtf? come onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn..never ever let a dude take some random nudie of you..never girl...cause that bamma ain't coming offa them. Instantly i thought of all the dudes i use to be involved with and how they'd ask for pics(of the nasty variety with a camera) and how I'd refuse. I mean snap a picture with your mind or something..but wow..just wow.. I mean isn't that why we have camera phones now?

OMG!!!!! I'm fucking #2 in my FF league...and it's all because of Roddy White..You bamma :(. I can't believe this!!! I just can't...HOld me!!

If this weekend was any indication of the weekend I'll have this upcoming weekend...my year will be complete. So much this weekend. I was presented with a business proposal to assist with a styling opportunity. Another was to be the only female on an all male party promoting team comprised of MD/VA/DC affiliates. Now I can say most of my politicking is done out and over drinks. It was while I was out in the midst of mingling that these opportunities were proposed to me. We'll see where they go in the long run, but the fact that people saw my swagger and my go getter attitude is amazing. We all have our strengths and I guess being a social butterfly is mine.

I got a call this weekend from a customer asking if i still had my crocheted home goods line. To which i said no and referred them to someone else but, it seems she got out the game too. I mean for the amount of time it takes to make one long scarf, people weren't trying to pay the fee. It had gotten to the point that I'd only take deposits to start work. I use to sit in the house all week..maybe part of the weekend finishing projects for people to pick up. I must say that my craftsmanship was excellent but people were so instant..they wanted their hats right then and there. I'd have to explain that these were tailored to fit not just some run of the mill one size fits alls..so rather than having to sell and resell myself all over again, i stopped crocheting. The fun was gone. I still rock the ones I've made for myself over the years but if i do, do it again..it'll just be for shits and giggles.

I was briefly in DC saturday night for a house party/fight party..Good time...I bought my friend out with me. He had a good time...Typically he's quiet, but i'm glad he fit right in amongst the weirdness. On the ride home i was so done...all he kept saying was how well i held my likka and other substances. If he only knew how hard I was fighting to not fall asleep..ahahaha But i do suppose my tolerance is pretty high at this point. At one point in the evening my homeboy inadvertently said that he was watching the fight at home. This jawn his use to talk to, during a phone conversation to that to mean she was invited. She came thru and was amazed at how many folks was there...Needless to say that convo woulda been funny if i cared enough to pay attention later.

There was no Erro freestyle concerning the impending upset he thought he was finna hand me. With all of his games played and me having 2 games tonight..it's pretty much a wrap for our soulful crooner. Altho when i was on my way out the spot..he spotted me and said, "you won!" I'm sure I did Erro...I'm sure I did. Now the funny thing about Eden's is that it was overran with fans of this group called Ndellable. Now I mean I'd heard this cat David James' stuff on 88.9 and was like ok i could get into it..needless to say..the snobby music head i am...he needs to stick to all his own original music and keep his voice low enough as not to crack(meaning straight studio performing). He opened his set with "Crazy." Now, not many people can sing Cee-Lo's song...having said that..while i was in the bathroom..all you heard was his vocals and i thought, sweet jesus this guy here. When i got back out on the show floor, it sounded better accompanied by music but i could tell the vast majority of the crowd wasn't feeling him or that song. He bought hella people with him tho..so i guess he knew his audience. By the time Erro stepped on the stage the audience was really ready for some good music..and he delivered opening his set with a freestyle about coming to bmore...i think erro wanted to be a rapper back in the day, because his freestyles are so hilarious and witty at times. This one obnoxious guy kept screaming about show bmore some love and how he coulda been home watching the game...honestly i saw the score in the 2nd quarter(30-7) and i was ill...so the shorty of belvedere in my purse made up for it...at any rate erro freestyled about how dude sacrificed coming to the show to please his woman and how being a ravens fan sucked..hahahaha Son! i was sick to my stomach but eh...

I had yet another weird dream but this one i care not share. I don't know what's going on but I've been having some doozies.

I told the student worker who has a crush on me that i couldn't edit his erotica. There was so much wrong. Misused words,overly detailed, not the right attention to details, and just the action wasn't action. I hated that i had to send him that email, but it was necessary. Partially I think he asked me to edit them as a means to impress me. I wasn't impressed tho, I was turned off. I think it's better when some men just dress and look attractive. At least I did find out he was 21..so if i did perhaps, attack him...he'd be legal...no chris brown-o. He hasn't responded to my email either so, I think i lost one. *cues Jay-Z*

The Mt. Vernon monument lighting was held last night. I surprised myself by chilling and standing out in the cold. Politicking, drinking and singing with a friends co-workers. It's so funny because I'll probably be working for/with these same people shortly, if this Department of Labor job doesn't come thru.

I won't even mention the game...i won't mention the game. But Erro talked supreme trash on his forum as well as in an email, about our fantasy match up. This dude holla'ed he smelled a special freestyle song coming up on Sunday. I said that's alright as long as you mention, you're being #9, your lackluster season and my being #1. No response...I bet!

I told my bew i wouldn't write about him..but guess what? He did something yesterday that i view as bitchmade. I mostly believe he did it to get a rise out of me since I am so cool. All i could think about was punching him in his face, but the most I'll do is probably karate chop him in the throat as he sips tea.

From the weird dreams files:

And so it goes. I'd moved out of town(don't know what city). I took a 4 room basement apartment for 950 a month. Upon moving in, i discovered the main area was like a loft. Kitchen, living room and dining room, one open space. But when u walk over towards the kitchen there were 3 doors. One door led to a endless hallway/room of showers...nothing but showers. I run back out the door, close it and think that's weird. But initially thought in the dream, if i have company i'd have plenny room. Next door was a room with another woman's stuff in it..I mean it was crammed every where and in the nooks and crannies of her stuff were sleeping cats..I said awwww and someones gonna need to come get her stuff or the landlord is gonna have to move it. The third door was a bedroom with an adjacent master bath. It was very bright and opulent. I immediately took to the room, stood there and surveyed the layout. I leave back out into the main living loft area, which was a basement type grey or maybe it was beige but it was just normal. So i'm sitting on this love seat and i hear a knock at my door. I open it, it's a dude...I don't know the dude, didn't see his face but he came in and sat down. We're rapping..come to find out he's meeting the landlord to look at my spot..i mean i'd just moved it..then it dawned on me i'd left Ella(my cat) in baltimore. I panicked instantly. Called Deana she said she'd bring her to me..which was funny since she's allergic but this is where the story turns odd-er. So then instantly my landlord turns up with a work crew to amend the shower area and the room full of stuff. Also with him is another person looking at the apartment. I say excuse me i'm renting this, to which the landlord says...i figured you didn't like it...i said well i mean it needs some work but i'm here and i'm staying. The work crew is still working...the 2 other people are still there. Over in the far left hand side of the apartment I noticed some drapes. I go over trying to see what it was..It's a small hallway connecting to another apartment...ugh!, I think...i go further left and pull the drape down...it's a bar/lounge front, and people are standing there waiting to get into my apartment. I open the door to ask a question and they all just come in. Everyone just chillin in my loft style basement apartment. I'm walking around confused like wtf! I announce that i am tired and need some rest...no one moves..i go outside of my apartment and say to a bouncer type dude standing there..u wanna give me a hand? He says you just gotta be stern...deliver with authority. So i go back in and say alright folks time to go, i don't know what u're here for but it's not my apartment..One by one they file out. As i let the last person out, i see someone straggling out of the shower area. I go in to see if anyone else is in there..no one..i come out...Ella is on the love seat. I sit beside her and she says..this is your life... then i woke up...wtf! I mean what does it mean?...I woke up confused as hell..i can't begin to explain how i sat on the edge of my bed rubbing my eyes and looking at my cat(like she's gonna tell me what's up) who was sitting beside me(usually when i get up in the morning i go to the bathroom first..she escorts me.
Usually I'll interpret a dream but it was so much in that dream...so much... i wouldn't know where to begin...any ideas?

This entry is for my friends who think i have a OCD with getting ready for work, amongst other things.
Every night before I turn in for bed I always lay my clothing out for the next day. I'm so much a creature of habit, that I just do it without hesitation. Yesterday after helping a friend prepare for a holiday party(pics and story to following). I was on a high...not only had i been 1/2 of a styling team..we got him a shirt/tie/and pant for under 150. Anyway...we all dip and get something to eat..he drops us off at our respective houses. I see a note taped to the door. NO ELECTRICITY BETWEEN 12AM AND 6AM. My initial response was geez, then it was don't even trip yo black ass is sleep at those times anyway. So I went in the house did what I normally do every night before bed, save I did it first before I turned in. I got in the house at 9pm. I prepared candles so i could get dressed in the morning. I packed a small bag so i could do my makeup and hair at work...I had already been combing my hair out at work because i have been wearing hats lately. I got my outfit together, feeling accomplished I sat down and rested for a spell. Got up had a brew or 2. Took my shower and fell out. I did wake up at about 3am to pitch blackness. Normally in my apartment I keep my lil entry way lamp on but it was strange sleeping in totally darkness. I think i went to sleep at about 11ish, because when i woke up to go to the bathroom my laptop was still on but everything in the apartment was off(sidenote: good thing my cable is connected to my laptop which stays charged..just in case i got insomnia last night..i coulda watched teevee). So i got up this morning, lit the candles i had already spread around the apartment(which i might add looked stunning with the candle light). I've never been out of my apartment so fast...and i got here to work at 7. So for all my friends who joke me about my habits..suck it! I wouldnt've been able to iron a thing this morning. I suppose you're saying well you coulda called out..or called in late...at 620am the electricity was still not on...I'd rather be at work loafing in someone elses gas and electric, than at home looking dilly...I guess the moral of the story is Obsessive compulsives rock to a certain extent!

Nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww..As I have expressed in the past I have a desire to style people. For the past year I have been dabblin in stylin different friends and friends of friends. Mostly anyone who was fashionably challenged. Last night me and the bff Rose went to Nordstrom Rack to help a friend who's wife says he wears way too many sweats. He bought his shoes and a jacket with him..all we had to do was find him a pant/shirt and tie. This is what we came up with:


we worked the neck out but i didnt update the pic
another satisfied customer
The pants were a slate grey. The jacket was a navy with checks. It had a beige/orange/red thing going on.

Swiped from ESPN.com

In a sequence that not even the greatest fiction writer could conjure up:
• Brady was stuffed on a fourth-and-1 sneak from the Baltimore 30-yard line, but the play was negated because Ravens defensive coordinator Rex Ryan had called a timeout from the sideline a nanosecond before the snap. Baltimore coach Brian Billick declined to identify who signaled the timeout, noting only that "we called it" because the coaches "didn't like the configuration" in which the defense was aligned.
But television replays clearly showed Ryan calling the timeout and several Ravens players confirmed that. So the Brady run was ruled a no-play.
• On the ensuing snap, fullback Heath Evans was crushed by linebacker Bart Scott for a 1-yard loss. But the play was negated because Patriots right guard Russ Hochstein was called for a false-start penalty. Apprised that it was probably the most fortuitous foul of his career, the seven-year veteran backup lineman played it straight. "It's still something," Hochstein said, "that you never want to do."
Well, maybe not never, Russ.
• With 55 seconds remaining and facing a fourth-and-5 from the Ravens' 13-yard line, Brady threw incomplete for tight end Benjamin Watson, but Baltimore dime cornerback Jamaine Winborne was flagged for holding in the secondary. It was the correct call by the officials, but on the wrong player. Winborne made virtually no contact on the play but, in underneath coverage, Scott had Gaffney in a bear-hug.
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The Patriots got a lot of breaks in the closing minutes, and unflappable QB Tom Brady turned the good fortune into a jaw-dropping victory.
"I don't know if they got the wrong guy, called out the wrong number [on the penalty], or whatever … but we'll take it," Gaffney said.
In the Baltimore locker room, where the players were embittered at having exerted so much effort in a game that basically represented the Ravens' playoffs, players clearly felt as if the victory had been taken away from them by the officials.
"They just took the crown," cornerback Chris McAlister said of the officials, "and put in on [the Patriots'] heads."

bittttterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...cold
OMG that hawk was out last night...
A friend of mines invited me over to watch the game. I think he was a bit upset because i igged him during the game..I mean I was into it...Last night I was physically ill...Secretly wanting the Ravens to win but wanting Tom to have an excellent game...and because Bmore's D was on it..I lost my fantasy match up by 6 pts..geez(another close one)...but i still made the playoffs for my FF league and retained my number 1 status...This fantasy thing was great fun...But i don't know if i'll participate next year..

I'm so glad I winterized my windows early...Last night and this morning as I prepped for work I heard the wind blowing the plastic...damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn is all i can say..I can't believe that much air was getting into my apartment. I'mma need my landlord to upgrade the windows before he asks for another cent if he raises rent (that rhymed but not intentionally).

It seems more and more people are finding me thru facebook and myspace..some are welcomed others are not. Like ex's. It's like they send you these amicable messages like you were the best of friends...and the truth is so totally far left.

I think my birth control is giving me headaches, I'm running out of options as to what to use. As long as it's not pill form i'm good. and the patch..i heard you lose skin behind that.

Styling is somewhat hard..especially when you're working with someone in another city. So your correspondence is every where trying to get measurements and rare items. As is the case with any singer they want to look stylish, not over the top but they always want some vintage piece in the outfit that will either make or break it. That being said I have to find this tee shirt or get it made...If i get it made..i'll be the woman 100%. Someone asked me the other day was I nervous. Last year i'd probably have told you yes...but this year nah. I'd rather be styling than sitting behind my desk all day.

I'm no way ready for this pajama jammy jam saturday..i mean i don't even own pajama.. sheesh..

My life is so not boring but i promised to keep alot of things out of my blog..I'm oppressed...ahahaha

Just about the only set back to lounging and watching football all day is the restless backlash you experience when trying to go to sleep after all the excitement is done. After watching the last of the games I turned my teevee off in hopes that I'd drift off to sleep. Not so...And this was at about 1140 pm... I found myself switching aimlessly thru channels trying to find something that might induce my sleeping..fat chance...and on top of that I had the nerve to get a head headache. I mean I did venture out at least once yesterday. I went to the grocery to pick up things for Sunday's(homeade chicken noodle soup..and i had a taste for buffalo wings) dinner and a few things for lunch this week. Generally I am an early riser. Waking up at 800am-ish on the weekends. I suppose that's how i get alot done :). But it has it's drawbacks. People know I'm up so they text me that early..but it backfires when I'm not woke and i get a good morning text...albeit it makes me smile that people are thinking of me so early in the morning but damn....I didn't go to sleep till 23oam..and i woke up at 5...nice right? The strange thing is I don't feel tired. I guess that'll change about 12pm. I made me some chai tea this morning and am sipping it as i type this out. My weekend was very laid back in comparison to what i have planned for the next month. This is the only weekend I'll have a lull in my activities...kicking things off in DC this weekend. I love DC..even scouted apartments there...but i wasn't compelled..I am however compelled to move my ass outta bmore. I don't know why I'm so restless here but who knows(maybe it's all the condos going up..and the rapidly rising cost of rents downtown..and if i can't live downtown or close to it..I'd rather not do it). I scoped out a few cities..and the hunt is going successfully.

Saturday I drove with my good friend Zee to take her mom to Dulles. Her mom is a Jehovah's witness missionary in the Dominican Republic. I'm not gonna lie that sounds intriguing as hell. She lives on about a acre of land and lives lavishly with little to no job. This woman use to hold 2 jobs while she was here..owned several properties and decided to let it all go..She's the most relaxed I've seen her in years. I've always thought of just picking up and leaving the US too...becoming and ex patriot is another thing on my list of to do's.

I was supposed to check out my homeboy and Little Brother last night..but it was nasty out..and i really didn't feel like hot footin it to the spot they were at.

I think other than washing my clothing and secure my flight tickets..my weekend was pretty unproductive..

Lastly...air travel is the devil...ticket cost are the devil...but a necessary evil :)