Today would have been the first day in many moons that I would have bust my ass in heels. Trying to be cute i wore heeled knee boots to work this morning. Normally I'd wear flats during my commute but i decided to throw caution to the wind. Who knew that wouldn't be the only thing in the wind this morning. Everything was fine as i left my apartment with 90% of the banana pie I made. I bought it to work because it was just sitting in the house..and i couldn't bring myself to eat more than a slice a day...anyway..I'm teetering along..to the bus stop..get on the bus..sip my chai latte..
It wasn't until i got off the bus that my problems started...I'm mid way thru my brisk morning walk from loch raven to hillen road. And then my heels started feeling funny..

Like wobbly..I shrug it off...till i go to step down on a kinda steep lil dip in the side walk..and it happened..the heel either bent back or forward..but all i felt was me dipping. Normally no one is out during my commute..maybe motorist, but no one walking ..but this morning..it was teeming with people..I immediately stopped dead in my tracks..adjust my ipod headphones..all this while I'm playing off the wobbly feeling in my heel..I get my stride back up and it happens again. :( This time as i was crossing the street..can't play that off..so i just kept it moving...I finally got to my desk and sure enough the heel looked a bit shaky..i have no back up shoes..this will be and interesting day to say the least...on top of that my hair feels very busy..very wolf man jack.. :(

In other news the crab cakes went off without a hitch..very tasty but i will never use back fin again in my life...just jumbo lump or lump when i make my next batch. I also made potato salad with it...I even went out on a limb and made a dipping sauce with pesto/mayo/lil mustard/and a lil relish..very tangy and delicious if i say so myself...It wasn't until i started chowing down that i decided i should have snapped a pic...i did but the crab cake was half eaten so i deleted..ahaha..I'll start photographing my culinary forays :)

I was so here on time...
Vanilla Chai in my hand...new coat on this morning..ready for work.
I arrive at work, sit at my desk. Turn the computer on and I have no innernets connectivity. So i sit here..read the paper and sip said Vanilla Chai. An hour passes still no connectivity. I go to a coworkers comp's their connection is up. I figure it's a problem on my end. The drop is completely hanging off the wall..so i figured well, maybe it's that...No dice. So i continue to sit at my desk. Then it pops up...I'm back on the innernets. I would have been bored and sad without without becauseeeeee..that leads me to the second part of my entry.

I don't know what it was..maybe it was a mixture of nervousness and cramps..wondering of i was retaining my number 1 spot in ff..or maybe it was the fact that i laid in bed all day but I did not go to bed till about 3am. I tried everything, listening to music..watching tv..it wasn't working. I was so annoyed...knowing i had a full day of work ahead of me..i just laid there..thinking..praying..doing what i could. I didn't dare call anyone..I mean i knew of one person i could call but lord knows what they were doing..so i refrained. And then finally...around about 330, i closed my eyes. I was awakened by the 6am alarm...everything in me said stay yo ass at home..but the other side of me said this is why we're in this mess...so i pushed myself out of bed.

Getting ready this morning was challenging..not because of clothing, hair or makeup...because my toilet decided it wanted to back up. :( I had just used it..as is customary every morning..what can i say I'm regular...but i was repulsed...that i had to plunge the toilet...i think i almost earled.. I just looked up and thought this cant be life.. :(

So here i am...at work..a lil repulsed..tummy full of vanilla chai..re-enacting my hellafied morning for you.

Oh babies I need a hug!!!

It's not often that a song haunts me...but this is one of those times..I've had Emily King's cd for some time now. But i refused to bandwagon..so i decided to discover her in my own time. She has this cut..I mean it could be a "he" or a "she"...but "it was you" is one of those rare songs that make u think on a slow night..or a night when u're winding down. A night such as this one when it's 2:31 AM..and u have a few good memories and songs on repeat. This song reminds of me of all the good that went on in my dealings with various men. Namely a few in the past year or so...For various reasons things didn't work...maybe it was me being scared, maybe it was them..*shrugs* but it never got past the conception stage. I don't mourn for what could have been but on nights like this i miss snugglin up with my S.O. and drunkly babblin about what was on my mind..comfortably falling asleep in his arms. Getting that kiss goodnight before i pass out..only to awake to him again :).. Ya know the good things.. It's times like this and times like this only that i long for a committed relation. Maybe one day..but i do believe I'm not ready...relationships have been presented to me on and off the last year but something about them didn't sit well with me so i didn't even entertain them. I never wanna be the chick settling for a piece of something. Some could argue I'm way too old for semantics..but it's all relative...so until i feel like i can be 100% Sha around someone ..it can't be and I've gotten that into my mind.

I was supposed to go to philly for a costume party...but my ride flaked and i ended up in at a Halloween party in Annapolis. While there 2 brothers hit on me. I can tell I'm maturing and that petty part of me is dying because i didn't even entertain that madness. I acknowledged the holla..deflected it and kept it moving. I mean who needs it? Not only that, they were the cousins of a long time friend. I just didn't see a win or a way to manipulate the situation. The party was hilarious...but i didn't get a chance to unveil my costume which i spent days wondering about..*drum rolls* so i decided to go as a SELF PORTRAIT. Hilarious i know..but chuckle inducing nonetheless...When people asked me what i was..I'd lift my frame and say a self portrait and I'd pose like this... I'd get others to pose like this as well

Oh well! I well be out Halloween evening in Fells Point with my costume getting my yuck yuck on.

Lastly I'm checking my fantasy stats to make sure I'm on! It's tough work staying number 1. Thanks to the Champ and his side consultation and reinforcement, i am where i am today. I start bball soon..and he said it would be worse..i may need to drop out because football is way intense for me. But the adrenaline is great :)....

Have a wonderful football sunday..and don't buy that American Gangster bootleg..ahahahha

I've hit the mother load!! Yesterday while putting my styling chops to work, I stumbled upon a hidden jewel of a place. Sure it use to be crackin back in the day but I don't think alot of people utilizes it's resources now. I'll give you a clue. It's a retail store with clothing for the whole family. It specializes in designer names(for real..and it's not marshall's nor tjmaxx) for a fraction of the cost. I found a shit load of designer cocktail dresses and dresses period for myself. I'm talking Calvin Klein, Cynthia Rowley and more. It's right up my alley too because I wanna do more dresses. Anyway, me and Deans didn't get anything..but we did hook James up. One tuxedo with alterations, 5 shirts, a few ties and a pocket square later it didn't break the bank! The tie/shirt/pocket square combo i picked out was awesome and risk taking..but what's an affair without taking a risk on fashion. From there we tore Towsontown Center apart trying to look for Dean's a dress. Now, she had pre-ordered one online from Nordstrom. A nice lil number from Maggy London. Online it looked groovy but when she put it on not so much
this lil number here The neck was a bit more loose and it didn't speak to us.

So we had her try on this girl here perfection
She looked stunning in this color and cut. Charmeuse, Silk and Satin are speaking to me this fall...absolutely. But she wanted to search more anddddddddddddddd it was a black and white affair...so we went to Macy's...I instantly started picking up dresses and by the time i looked up, i had my top 5. Now any of you that have met Deans and James know they are both tall in statue...but Deans is very reubensque when it comes to her curves. Throwing that in the mix, made it not so simple to pick and pull but we did it. Rather I picked out the banger.. We settled on a grey silk and charmeuse number with sequin detailing..i know you're thinking..omg sequins! but it was more like beading about the neck. I just tried to go on the Macy's website to find it but couldn't so I'll Frankenstein it..so u can see...take the neck fit and the body on this
and the dark grey color on this
Perfection...a lil smokey eye...and the hair pulled back into a chignon. I know they both will look awesome when they throw the outfits on.
Doing this yesterday and lately within the past week or so i can see me styling full time. *scratches head* hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

After all that shoppin I was so thirsty..so we hit up Tapas Teatro...Twas yet again fun...I had the spinach and crab meat with asiago cream and sherry sauce and the flat iron steak tapas..delicious..coupled with a pint of Stella Artois, it was a damn good cap on a good ass day.

Enjoy your weekend..
ps. I've settled on a costume now pray for my traveling mercies. :)

Never second guess yourself.. Go with your gut and initial idea. Here's why:
This morning like any morning when it is rainy outside i always re wrap my hair and just rock out with a headscarf..not the ghetto ones but the large fashion silk ones. I have them in an assortment of colors so as not to look too tacky on my morning commute. But this morning I did something i haven't done in a long time. I underestimated the weather. Laying in the bed this morning right before i got out of it..i felt a cool breeze blow thru the apartment. So i figured 1. I could comb my hair out 2. My hair would not fall or do anything weird. 3. It's not that windy out.. I go to 7-11, then on to the bus stop. I could feel my hair was fuggin up..like i could feel it..it wasn't even humid it was just moist...so i continue to walk to the campus. I sit down at my desk and sip my coffee. Then i looked at the mirror on my desk..OMG! My hair was swapped to the left and it was crinkled...How the hell did my hair get crinkled? who the hell knows but, it was an awful sight :( L. After conversing with my supervisor I made my way to the rest room...I tried my best to whip this shit into shape..but i should've went with my initial plan to wear my head scarf to work..as i did yesterday. This hair style leaves no room for errors..zero!!..the bangs make the cut..and so does the razor sharp sides...needless to say the short side had the nerve to try and curl up. wtf? I mean you would think i didn't have my umbrella up :( Now i have it in some generic wrap, in hopes that it may wanna act right..And i lost the mate to a pair of vintage screw on amber drop earrings..geez you should really see the back ups.. :( grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....something also told me to stay my happy ass in the bed, but eh. I should've known the day was gonna be funky because i changed my lipstick 2 times..i never do that...never...grrrrrrrr.

Anywayyyyyy.... Go forth and be fruitful.

I went to sleep hella early last night and knew I'd pay for it. Well I woke up at 4am. I was determined not to be up all willy nilly at 4, so i forced myself back to sleep. I've never been so determined to take my ass back to sleep. I was serious about those last 2 hours of sleep. I was so sincere.

Every morning I get coffee. It's kind of a ritual. Either I'll brew some at home or I'll stop at the 7-11 for a refill(which by the way serves tea also..who knew?) At any rate, as i boarded the bus, the bus driver asked where his cup was. As I normally do in these instances..I giggled and smiled very cutesy. Usually they let me go and smile back..No this bamma said it again. This time i said it's in the store with the other cups. He had this you asshole look on his face but, man he forced me. Which leads me tooo..

I was told I'm too damn sarcastic...I mean come on somethings are just common knowledge. For instance yesterday I'd told a coworker i was taking lunch to read an article in this magazine. Said coworker, came in the back where I was eating. She asked, "what do you have there?" My answer, "a magazine." "Asshole,"she replied. hahaha I mean I felt no bit of guilt. I do realize i do have selective hearing but damn son....I just told you about the article. Geez.

I have on Grey and lime green eyeshadow..the way i did it..is.. there is an inkling of color...my hair hangs over one eye..leaving one full eyelid exposed. Every time I wear bright colors my coworker always says.."see, i can wear that too"..I mean it's not my fault you're oppressed by color norms. I hate when people think they can't wear a color and they can..but ya know the funny part is..she acts like I'm midnight black or some shit..*sigh* Live a little my sisters. Play with color. I wear pink lips too..coral..plum..blood red...dark burgundy..deep brown...no color is off limits to me..save for silver or anything with silver glitter in it..makes my lips look ashy...

This morning I feel in the mood for "Frank". Blame it on the rain but, Amy Winehouse's first cd is fitting.


"Know You Now"

You're just a little boy underneath that hat
You need your nerve to hide your ego - don't come with that
You think everything is handed to you free
But it's not that easy, no

I gotta know you now
We may never meet again
I gotta know you now and then

My girl says I'm too sensitive to ride with you
But I'm not listening to her, mm hm
Yes I'm perceptive so when I've dance with you you'll whisk your head back the way it were
As you were

I gotta know you now
We may never meet again
I gotta know you now and then

[Ad lib]

Oh, I'm not ruling you out
I'm just in doubt as to what you say you're all about, yeah

I gotta know you now
We may never meet again
I gotta show you now and them
I gotta know you now and then

I gotta know you now
We may never meet again

I gotta know you now
We may never meet again

I gotta know you now
We may never meet again

I gotta know you now
We may never meet again

Eureka!

Finally I've made my mind up about my Halloween costume party outfit..
But I'm not telling..I went back and forth about what i wanted to be.
I was determined not to buy anything..so i wrecked my brain coming up with something.
It came to me as I swtiched over my closet last night(i store my clothing away according to what the seasons are spring/summer/fall/winter) It came to me as I sat on my floor sorting thru winter boots...Eureka! I'd found something that showcased my personality...i didnt wanna be anything cliche(read: sexy) The world will be inundated with sexy/flirty costumes of every kind..But i think this idea is truly unique. If someone shows up with the same idea..I'mma get my Regine(throw drinks on the person who has the same outfit as mine) on. A friend of mines asked was it a secret..to which i responded..yes. Sorry I can't let you guise in but i shall take a few pics this weekend.

I decided to start making earrings again..and off top i got 3 orders. Yay...I've been so uninspired. Now i'm back for a moment.

I went out with some folks last night for cocktails. I'd like to say it's great living in an area where i can get tipsy and walk a few blocks home..awesome. I also hate when you're drinking and having fun..someone always wants to be scholar...I just wanna shout..i'm drinking and having fun here!

Let see...
I really didnt have anything to blog about this morning so i skipped it.

Don't you like unexpected text that make you smile?
Don't you hate when someone says that you have an attitude thru text?
Don't you just love this weather?
Don't you need a vacation?
Why can't some folks be happy for you?
Why do people think we all need the same things? or even further, that we can all subscribe to the same plan...
Why is homeade cake so good fresh out the oven...no frosty!
Why did someone just walk into the office wearing a jacket that reminded me of an ex? It made me smile for a second..then frown..cause he no longer has that jacket.
Why am i loving the shit out of life right now?



ps. I'd like to say going into week 9 of my fantasy football league, i find that some of the trades are less than savory..they can say they are just offering a trade because it seems like a good deal(bullshit) or they really think I'm just some dumb girl. Either way, they can suck my team...

Oh my aching legs..
A day after helping my friend move..my legs are on fiyah! So are my arms.
I was tempted to take another day off but I may just be playing hooky again this
up coming Friday..
At any rate...help someone move,you may just get a tv!
My friend knew of my situation and my reluctance to purchase another teevee...being as tho I have the tv tuner and actually love that I can record tv when I want..
But yes I have a 2 year old, 25 inch teevee..upgrade!
If I had any inclination of moving my apt around..that notion is benched.
Yesterday was spent maxxin and veggin out..I'd cooked earlier so i could lay around and watch football all day..and whatever else came on teevee...(random note: i caught an aryan nation doc on history channel..dem boys going crazy in Birmingham...of all place.)
I didn't stuff myself too much..but everything was slammin if I do say so myself..specially the cake!! For a second I felt bad that I sat around and ate and watched teevee all day but fug it..I spent all Saturday stinking, lifting and moving..


Oh how i love this lil item here..I normally don't eat breakfast in the mornings
during my work week...but instant grits with cheese..yesh!
I know that's real niggerish but guess what..hmm hmm good.

No Manhavior antics...I mean i can always rehash some but then again yeah i do have some...So ole boy calls me on the phone to run down his weekend for me..and in the midst says.."maybe i'll have some time for you." Hahaha all this coming from the same sack of poop that was depressed...hahaha *rolls eyes* Some dudes are so catty..I maintain that men are the new women..

So I'm sitting here early Sunday morning. Just got in from a long day of helping my good friend and my god babies move. Man they had alot of shit..And we didn't even get all the things..but damn man. I'm beat...right now i'm chillin...i checked my FF stats and made sure everything is a go. I'm also cooking dinner for Sunday..I had a strong urge for some baked turkey wings..then it evolved to a full blown meal..complete with a yellow cake..ahahah..It smells sorta like thanksgiving in my house...so warm and inviting. Why am i cooking tonight you ask? Because i plan on doing absolutely nothing tomorrow. I hope no one calls me tomorrow because, me answering is just not gonna happen. I tried to call everyone today and see what the haps were...but everyone was either out and about or preoccupied. I ain't mad..but yeah, tomorrow...no habla ingles.

Today i went to target and came up on some choice items that'll make for a funky fall/winter. I plan to go to Urban Outfitter to get my colorful tights on. I'm so excited...i love my fall/winter clothing. I suppose i need to go ahead and switch over my closet. It's just so much work..especially after today...

I saw Why did i get married..It was a good movie..It covered every emotion and cliche but it was a decent film..At one point in the movie i thought to myself..damn can jill breath? For those of you who've seen the movie..you'll know what part i'm talking about. I mean i love Jill like the next person but..yeah..they had sister cinched in.

Umm what else? Not a damn thing.
Enjoy yo sunday folks

So I'm sitting here early Sunday morning. Just got in from a long day of helping my good friend and my god babies move. Man they had alot of shit..And we didn't even get all the things..but damn man. I'm beat...right now i'm chillin...i checked my FF stats and made sure everything is a go. I'm also cooking dinner for Sunday..I had a strong urge for some baked turkey wings..then it evolved to a full blown meal..complete with a yellow cake..ahahah..It smells sorta like thanksgiving in my house...so warm and inviting. Why am i cooking tonight you ask? Because i plan on doing absolutely nothing tomorrow. I hope no one calls me tomorrow because, me answering is just not gonna happen. I tried to call everyone today and see what the haps were...but everyone was either out and about or preoccupied. I ain't mad..but yeah, tomorrow...no habla ingles.

Today i went to target and came up on some choice items that'll make for a funky fall/winter. I plan to go to Urban Outffitter to get my colorful tights on. I'm so excited...i love my fall/winter clothing. I suppose i need to go ahead and switch over my closet. It's just so much work..especially after today...

I saw Why did i get married..It was a good movie..It covered every emotion and cliche but it was a decent film..At one point in the movie i thought to myself..damn can jill breath? For those of you who've seen the movie..you'll know what part i'm talking about. I mean i love Jill like the next person but..yeah..they had sister cinched in.

Umm what else? Not a damn thing.
Enjoy yo sunday folks

I haven't dressed up for Halloween in years. You'd think with all this creativity going on in my head I could conjure up some idea for what I wanted to be for this costume party I am attending. I've been on the fence all week about whether I was going or not but I have finally decided it is affirmative. 3 ideas instantly came to mind..

Beer Wench

Cleopatra

Cleopatra Jones

At any rate...I think i've narrowed it down..
I even thought about being a pink lady

I don't wanna spill the beans too early and someone takes the idea..but i am leaning more towards..Cleopatra Jones!! So don't take my damn idea, dammit!!!!

I always love the day before I am to play hooky from the office..because i get to do absolutely nothing..rile the natives up and then not show up.. *breaths in office air*

Tonight I'm supposed to be going to see why did i get married...I've heard mixed reviews..i guess I'll find out for myself soon.

Manhavior shout out of the day:
On acting right(you'll get further)...finally ole dude has stop beating around the bush and assuming. He came out yesterday and asked me to come over. I didn't because my appt. ran over but kudos to him for steppin up...but i think it's too late..my interest has waned...

Funny Funny Commuters.
Without fail i always board the bus in the morning, with my purse and my cup of joe.
That's me.. My makeup and hair done..my work outfit done from head to toe, flats on my feet...pumps in my purse. Ipod in my hand, blocking out the world and pesky old bus riders who like to chat for fucks sake. But there is one such commuter who irks the shit out of me besides the fat folks plastering you to the window...it's the ipod screen looker at'ers...Now I didn't have this problem when I had a nano..But this morning it was bad. I blew my old ipod headphones out..listening to a song with heavy bass. So now I'm sporting the back ups, and i guess you can hear my music thru my earphones..So this morning a youngin sat next to me and he eyeballed my screen the whole time we were on the bus which was 20 minutes..So i played india arie..and right after that 99 problems..now i don't mind you looking at my screen but now you bobbin ya head..come on! Can a woman have some privacy? Anyway he gets off the bus..but he looks back and smiled at me..Am i becoming a cougar for the high school generation? The youngin stare/holla is high...I don't know what's in the milk..but it's gone bad.

My mailman came in 2 times yesterday...buzzing about the mail in my office..yesterday i was alone in the outta office..and he went in!..I'd never seen him like that...I was strangely turned on by the fact that this normally quiet guy was throwing caution to the wind and flirting openly with me..he said the usual..i have nice eyes..my skin looks smooth and i always smell good.. of course i blushed but heh..no shitting where u eat..maybe if he got fired..but not until then.

Umm what else? OH...I shall highlight several examples of men and their attitudes on woman and dating with a section that shall be dubbed...Manhavior(since they have their own code and way of acting that so hilarious):
Someone asked me to do a 3 some...i promptly said no. I never told dude I'd had one..His reasoning for inviting me?.."I'm sassy and good in bed..and maybe i could learn the other chick something"..was i to be flattered??? why u sexing her if she doesn't know what she's doing? Oh men, does this work? Another manhavior funny...a dude i was seeing briefly..asked me and i quote,"am i still hitting that or what." I laughed and hung up the phone. Ya know i like honestly like the next person but have some finesse and class..You can catch more flies with honey babies.. I also got invited to a swingers party to watch..i don't think i wanna go, the last one i went to i wanted to put my eyes out.. :(

*hugz*

HEY HOW YA DOING? SORRY YOU CANT GET THRU..BUT IF YA LEAVE YA NAME AND YA NUMBER THAN I'LL GET BACK TO YOU(C) DE LA SOUL


Tis the season for reconnections and settling down. Some have been smart..acquiring their boos preseason..pregaming and laying the foundation in the summer..kudos!..u need to speak to your late sistren and brethren and provide tips so they won't appear desperate. It's the ones in a mad dash that are hilarious.. Now is the time that your cellphone queues are over ran with missed calls and text from suitors you once related to but had to change the way you related to them..simply put, something didn't pop off..or maybe it did and it was not so nice. Rarely in my dating life have i had a miss connection and it comes back around. Those rare occasions that me and an ex boo just so happen to reconnect..never last long and are fleeting. Maybe that's what makes them rare. *shrugs* At any rate I guess my stock is on the rise. Word in the streets is that I'm a catch. I guess it doesn't hurt to be someones cool home girl after all(put that in ya pipe and smoke it)..and i guess it's not a hindrance after all, that i am a social butterfly. In this past week alone I've gotten the I miss you emails and text that one tends to receive about this time of year. One so into the future that he dropped hints of being snowed in together. This is not the time to be cute but, I find inquiries at this point a bit cliche. Everyone wants to spend more time indoors and why not hang out with me? I mean i cook..i have likka on tap..and i seem to have my hand in any number of pots(read: the hook up on anything)
So why do u suppose those people who distanced themselves from you in the summer are back for more in the winter? Do you engage them? That leads me to my last question...Are you supposed to be that pressed for them that you're to forget the past indiscretions and move the mission? And what's up with married dudes..they going hard in the 07...Niggas control ya balls!

I'm thinking of leaving the sexiness of my treo for the sexiness of the Palm Centro.
I just view it as a skinnier treo..and i'm on it as soon as i get this 150 upgrade credit..holla!

When your assistance is sought to find a super dope outfit for a tween who's not yet a teen in body/spirit..what do u pick out? The answer... something super cute.
So me and the bff rip thru the mall with 3 hours to burn. In tow her niece who's going to a Bat mitzvah. Now I hate to aggravate anybody but there was somethings i had to know before i went on this mission...such as fave colors..do u wanna show a shoulder? nothing more than that..I wasn't concern about length..just style..something cute enough for a Bat mitzvah on the water in f'ing Nov(but that's another story). We start in Macy's, Delia's,Gap(?) Arden B., Limited, Express,Black and White and finally Nordstrom. I had verbalized that we should skip all the stores I mentioned and go straight to Nordstrom..but no...we went in every last store..everything was either too revealing, too casual and not age appropriate..So finally we step foot into BP@ Nordstrom..I go straight for the dresses...Eureka! A cream and brown polka dot cap sleeve baby doll dress..Yes! age appropriate, fun, and youthful.. I was also amazed at all the color they had available since it is now officially winter in the fashion world.. NEways..For me I felt we didn't have to look any further it was the dress..i was convinced the fit and everything would be superb..But the bff had to pluck a few more dress..and what happened? The dress i picked was the winner.. Everything about this dress on this girl screamed Yes!I'm appropriate.. Next was shoes..we decided to go down to the rack..she didn't want a kitten heel rather a flat..that was the next challenge..what could be worn against satin..yes..i failed to mention the dress was adorably satin..we decided patent leather with chocolate tights since it's on the water...she loved the idea..found the shoes and the tights. Mission accomplished..Out of a budget of about 300...we spent a total of 160 complete for this outfit from head to toe..awesome...i think we need our own show :) Maybe i need to pitch this to tvone or bet...I tried to find a pic of the dress but alas no dice..omg it's hard out here for a tween without a teen body..everything was strapless or backless and i'm like wow..way to age our youth..geez store buyers...

I found a tv on craigslist and the chick said she would drop it off...as my luck would have it I haven't heard from the hoe since fri. morning..that's alright because
I have a tv tuner for my laptop and i think i fell in love with this new gadget..that and window media center...Because I have basic cable so I don't have a tvr function..but with media center I don't have to miss one of my shows again...yippee...my laptop is about 15inch and i don't mind one bit..I'm seriously thinking of not even buying another tv, I'm so impressed..either that or buying a new flat screen monitor and installing windows on my old pc :)

I have a new love

Now I tried the VS makeup when it was in it's infancy stages but hadn't been back since. But i tried on a color called Cocoalicious..OMG! i love it..For black girls with more brown color in our lips it's a godsend. It has gold and bronze flicks in it..ya know brown girls with brown lips cant wear anything with a silver in it..makes out lips look like Pookie .

The girly swap went on without a hitch..a good time was had by all.
We ended our night @ Tapas Teatro
Good food, ambiance, atmosphere and fun. Check em out if u have a moment.

Craigslist Bmore sucks...and what's worse, people cant read.
I made my ad specific...and still i got responses from as far as DC.
Geez who knew it would be so hard to replace a 19" teevee...People selling teevees no remotes..teevees, color is slightly off..I mean really I'm not a swap meet. Having said that I still don't have a teevee. Zarina offered me a cable teevee tuner for my laptop..if only she can find the dern thing :) I'm not too worried..one good thing is that i get to catch up on music and reading..things i normally don't do because I'm stuck watching csi, law and order(svu and ci), or any random beauty and lifestyle program. I'll be damned if i haven't tried to turn that burnout tv back on in hopes that it would pop back on..no dice. It's not as if I have nothing to do..I have a PS1, PS2, PSP, NintendoDS, and a laptop...and plenny books...I briefly dated a dude that sent me a book a week..we dated for 2 months... so yeah..

Yesterday in the midst of my day this guy that's become fodder and padding for my life dating experience pops up on AIM. Now we briefly had a thing but dude was just an asshole..and often when people are rude and sarcastic(all the damn time) they do it because some shit is wrong internally..yes I'm generalizing but in my experience those dudes that I've dated, that have done this had some deeper issue. Anyway...The night before when my teevee actually blew he texted me..we went back and forth for about 10 mins and as is with any text/aim/call with dude it always ends with me just leaving the convo(not on a high note..icu mr mobley) So yesterday I mean he's really really going on and on about how he hopes i have a good evening watching must see tv..just all kind of jokes that i wasn't feeling after oh let's see the 15th motherfucking one. So i merely said..if i had any inkling of romantic feeling towards you..u kilt that shit...then this nigga wanted to play his el sensitivo card..needless to say..fuck that shit..how the fuck u finna be a asshole but have esteem issues...get some help buddy.

I briefly went to Eden's to hear Yamamanym @ Eden's Lounge.
It was supposed to be the kick off to the Morgan State Homecoming Weekend.
I never take part in MSU festivities because i hate when the students stare at me trying to figure out an i the chick that works in the Dean's Office..Yes i am..No you can't turn in your application with me(you'd be amazed) I had a good time...good company and good dranks..I'm glad Bee pried me out my house.

This weekend is the girlyswap and i haven't gotten anything together..I got rid of more than i thought the last time i cleaned out my closet..I'll figure something out..

R.I.P T.V. 9/98-10/07
I got my tv when i first moved home from college and it was a huge hassle. I don't drive so I had to wait for someone to take me to get it..and of course by the time I get there the tv was no longer on sale. So i ended up buying the daewoo tv I have now. Last night as I was settling in at home my tv just shut off..now this is nothing new because my tv is somewhat possessed and has been that way for the last year. So anyway it goes off I do as I normally do..unplug it..replug it up and turn it back on..but Teevee wasnt turning back on.. dah well i thought..i need to clean and do my hair anyway..I went back after I did all that thinking teevee would come around..I guess not. I texted messaged a few friends who had 2 or more tv's...You know these bastids didn't wanna part with one? *shrugs* So i got on craigslist, search for tv's in my area. No dice. I know you're saying to yourself broaden your scope..You see rides are few and far in between and I'm really just looking for some place i can roll my granny cart to and pick up said Tv. Cross ya fingers for me...

This morning I woke up excited because the good fall weather was back..the bite and crispness in the air.. I was so unaware it rained last night..i guess that's why i felt damp when i got up to go to the bathroom but eh, that's another story. I put my outfit on..and my jacket! In spite of the crappy tv bit i woke up in high spirits...I'm sure something will come thru in the nick of time.

Yesterday started earlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..
As of late my friends have been calling early on the weekend, i suppose it's because I'm out in the blink of an eye. But i got a call at 10am asking did i wanna do breakfast and the Fells Point Festival. I had no damn idea it was gonna be so damn hot out yesterday. We got there...parking was horrendous..but the festival was awesome as usual..Found some hot ass vintage screw on earrings..got up on some oysters..some sangria..and some festival eats..It was at this point me and the posse couldn't take anymore and decided to hit Midtown Yacht Club for Football and pitchers of Mimosas*(this is the new sunday ritual). It's the same place that has pitchers of mimosa for 3 bucks during brunch but yeah..7 still ain't bad...especially when u come in off the hot festival streets. We stayed planted thru about 4 games...then it was off to a dinner ...People who under bid and don't know how to bid their hands should be banned from Spades..that was totally random but yeah..we coulda won but no dude with the gold teeth swore he was doing something.. :( I just drank more rum and coke to drown out his crap talk.. Almost didn't make it in this morning but we have a staff meeting.. so yeah..

While on the eastern shore Saturday i scoped out a few places with some nice homes...not to say i wouldn't move there but it's an option...for your money you get alot :) I was in Trappe, MD for a bday party..twas awesome...all the down home cookout food u could want and likka to match...right after that i got invited to dinner..James made theeee spicest veggies I'd ever tasted...Now i love James to death but, all your dishes don't need a scotch bonnet pepper in it..I mean really..i had to swill several glasses of red wine to stop the internal bleeding.

Lately I've been obsessed with Yelp and u should too

I don't think i've had one hairstyle that has garnered so many different nick names..This one hair style has been given about 5 different names...I'll share a few here....

the johnny quest

the buddy lee

the jfk

the donald trump

and lastly

the fall out boy

It's funny because depending on who u ask and on what day my hair becomes something totally different. My godkids laugh that my hair is cut like a guys in the back *shrugs* what can i say? I've never been one to hang on to the norm as far as hair goes..it's another accessory to me. I've had short hair since i was about to turn 21..some ummm odds years ago I just decided i loved the versatility of short hair. I've had it since..i mean i can always weave if i wanna achieve it...I've always seen myself as the spicy older lady with the smoking grey short hair cut :)

At any rate i totally love my do...and i guess this an appreciation entry if u will :)

I had an awesome weekend..cookouts..dinners and today Fells Point Festival...Awww yeah...i'll prolly duck in and catch the football game as well.

Have a good one.

***SPOTLIGHT ON****

Lessondary Radio


I can't tell you how many times these guys have saved me. No matter when I click the link..however I'm feeling..the music sedates me..Who knew this morning I was feeling very Black cow...Hosted by various Loud Minority Affiliates, each brings their own personality into each podcast...It's all for the love and it's all for the free..unless u wanna donate..and ain't nothing wrong with that either...move the movement.. So yeah check em out!!

Speaking of which...Janelle Monae's
Metropolis Suite I of IV

With songs like "Sincerely Jane, Violet Stars Happy Hunting, and Many Moons," one can't help but turn it up and spazz out..I love the concept of the whole Cyndi Mayweather cybergirl...because after all we do love a good love story gone bad...

There are always those fleeting moments during the twilighting of dawn when I'm dressing for work on a payday..when i think fuck it I'm taking the day off and blowing this whole check on the things I want... Then i get that good ole anxiety...damn i got rent, student loans, cellphones, etc. et. al...will i pay everything out of my next check..what if what if what if what if. Then I say to myself..carry yo ass to work..sit at yo desk for the first half hour and pay yo damn bills...Being an adult sucks. Now days after i pay all my bills there's really not alot left..so i end up stashing some in savings and k.i.m. But i thought back to when i was younger and of course didn't pay rent..how i had a job and i know it didnt pay no more than 250 bi-weekly but it seemed I was rich..Now granted it was like 93/94 but damn...You remember what it felt like to just spend your money and not have a care in the world...I suppose it was because u know u had people to cover u if u needed it but when u get to be an adult that feeling is few and far in between. Gone are the days of the total check splurge...now everything is thought out planned and milled over.. *sigh* I think i wanna set my bills up..so sometime in the next few months i can just go and blow some $$$'s on frivolous purchases...it's the spice of life..i mean not just on a pair of shoes or some make up..i mean go all out and go

Woooo !
Back on track and well rested.
Who knew one day, well maybe 2 of some displaced rest could kill your whole works.
Friday I went home..did my hair and crashed. It was lovely until my phone started ringing. And i realized a few things...people call me to get a litmus on the night scene.. and 2 they always think my ass is getting my Paris Hilton on...now granted I am always somewhere but, aren't i allowed a breather? And when i say I'm in the house or sleep niggas wanted to talk and have meaningful conversations...sheeshhhhhhhhh lemme sleep. I tend to not turn my phone off since I don't have a land line. so i guess that's the price i have to pay.. *shrugs*

Over the weekend i got to take in the Baltimore Book Festival...and i came to the realization that every black person that was at the festival with a book wanted to break into this whole ghetto erotica thing...or this Zane going...and i was appalled.. I mean people read that shit...but damn. :( every time i turned around it was some scantily clad chick on the front and some slang title.."da milks gone bad." Or some shit like that..But the highlight was the walking literary tour of my hood...mt. vernon..Now i knew of some of the historic things that popped off but i wasn't aware alot. Such as Gertrude Stein lived directly around the corner from me while she attended JHU. I regret not getting a pic of the house but apparently the house is on sale/for rent. Other cool literary types that stayed in mt. vernon include: F. Scott Fitzgerald, Emily Post, Henry James, H.L. Mencken, and John Dos Passos to name a few...Here are a few shots i took:
Peabody Institute

the stafford

emmanuel episcopal church

The rest of the set can be seen here

enjoy.