So my office has decided to take the cheap route out of administrative professionals day/week and offer us a day off...during that week...my thing is, it's a day..u can't regulate when we take the day..ole cheap mofo's..then the admins. took themselves out yesterday..leaving no admins in the office yesterday for students to see..the really fugged thing is, that was one of the reasons my supervisor stated we all couldn't go out for admin pro day...because the total of the office would wanna go..I'm smelling a 3 days weekend for the kid...off fri..mon and tue...suck those nads establishment..and i'll celebrate by my lonesome..ahahahahah anyway...i don't have any plans for this weekend..i guess i should come up with some shit to do eh ?

Suggest a few things

And in other news 420 was poppin for the kid..holla!

Springtime!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was so gorgeous outside this weekend..I couldn't help but to bask in it and frollick... and with the good weather and a host of flowers...come the negros...Yes I said it..it's like people you haven't heard from in a month of sunday is on that hayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..and you're like ummm nooooooooooooooooooo..like why on God's green earth would i interrupt my schedule to hang out with someone so flaky..they don't know if they coming or going... then they get mad when u don't wanna hang out and try to make u feel like crap..when u really don't and that's the reason you said no in the first place..Like if i say no I'm missing out on some big to do...eh miss me... But I am very grateful for the recent turn in weather...I'm a sunshine baby and i flourish..but my hair blah...now's the time to cut it very low in the back and the sides because my hair curled all to be damned saturday...which may i add i looked very cute.... I'd like to take this time out to bring you a PSA of sorts-->

Friday I went to a party..and i swore i told the person i was riding with, that i had to be back to bmore...either that night or early the next day..this nigga wild the fuck out..kept drinking when other people had stopped...and was just being crass and uncouth..at one point this bitch holla..u gonna make me drive back to bmore...i said well i'll drive u can rest..to that he just sipped yet another drink....I decided right then and there that i was ghost...i had the hostess call me a cab and i waited..i didnt say anything because i really didn't feel like getting into it with him while i was waiting cause i knew he would say something off colored to me..so my cab finally gets there..i get to union station bout 4am..the first train wasn't leaving dc till 525..i didnt hesitate getting my ticket..and getting home @ 615am..My other plans went off without a hitch..the event was successful..and i got to do some mild shopping for the rest... :) I even got to see my peeps for a second..but sunday was Sha day..all i did was lay around and be lazy..weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

anyways...I'm happy...enjoy

The weekend was a mixed bag...of needing to rest and last minute shit...

So i was supposed to go to philly and party but decided against it because i was finna party this upcoming weekend or rather this friday for 4/20...I'm chillin and i get a call from my peeps in Annapolis...I'm by your house pack a bag...So i figured i'd be able to rest down there..no dice! As the saying goes things come in 3's.. Fri night all was quiet...had dinner with my friend, her dad and 2 girls...so we chillin and I'm like this restaurant..hmmm someone i know use to work here...Bingo! and he pops up on the table.."heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy what's up sweetheart?" And there he was..my youngin...this was the first guy i messed around with after the whole living with my ex thing..and to be honest if it wasn't for youngin my apt. would have never been set up..because i was so living out of bags..at the time he didn't have a job and was able to wait on the people(cable and phone) He would buy me weekly gifts just because..jewelry/clothing..anything..he was so sweet...so didn't want a girlfriend and i, no boyfriend at the time..we parted ways around my bday 2002....anyway he hugs me, kisses me and says how much he misses me..then plies me with a few fliers for a party he's promoting..peace i say..the whole table looks at me...oh..i say...i introduced everyone..smiles, around he departs us..I think to myself this is only fri..so i know there will be many more weird things and sightings abound..Fast forward to sat...chillin..only thing i really wanted to do was go find some peep toe shoes in maybe a linen feel..we walking up and down Annapolis mall..and my friend was like we going out..forget the rain we going to Sharky's..now i don't know if u all have been following but sharky's is a spot in Annapolis..it's mostly white but because of the lack of nightlife...everyone shows up to sharky's..so we pregame before sharky's..I had vodka and sparks..that shit is tasty..but anyone who knows anything about sparks knows it's basically crack in a can..and i know some of u are like why drink the shit?..cause it's good!!!! crack is good...the liquid sparks kind not the rock kind...but then again that can be liquefied..at any rate...i'm not talking real crack! Sooooooooooooo we get to Sharky's and i'm chillin... and am annoyed by 2 things...1 a friend of mines..bless his heart was touring with someone and didn't let me know he was coming thru bmore till very late..and he's like let's hang..nigga i aint no where near Baltimore..he send a few texts..and the more i drink the worse the text get..ahahaha..i love drunk texting..then i do it..i drunk text my not so recent crush..no answer..*sigh* Fast forward Sunday morning where i have a bout with brie cheese..green apple and walnuts...My God i felt i was going to die...that cheese sat in my tummy like a lump of coal! anyway..i go thru my phone and read the texts..i think oh Christ who wrote this shit! Twas I...my goodness..i died laughing..so i finally get back home..and i know your counting like what the fuck..she needs 1 more weird incident...i promise u they are coming forth... At this point all i really wanna do is lay in my bed and veg out..and i do just that..i laid in bed from 2ish till about 8...i motivate..do my hair..get ready for work..and my text goes off....it's my crush..basically telling me that he and his ex(whom they go back and forth in court) are gonna give their family the ole college try...I'm thinking you bitch...why didn't u tell me that like 1.5 weeks ago..you just finna let that shit rock like that..eh..i typed back thanks for letting me know..good luck...he replies...i'll be in touch..in my mind i go oh i know u will nigga...but i replied..dont do me no favors..hahaha at times i can be a bitch but with good reason..fugg him...so I'm on my phone and check my versamail...it's 42(the man that i think has a wife/girlfriend) hollerin if i wanna see a movie i need to call him asap...the fuck ? i'm like yeah nigga in my mind...but i didn't reply..i took a shower and watch i love ny reunion show...so i guess that brings me to 4..so i guess i got 2 more incidents to bring this to a even 6

You guys have a good day.

From the, I couldn't make this up if i tried files:

Last night I went to happy hour with a friend of mine who was in town on business. Wednesday seems to be shaping up as thee only night i have free during the week...aside from maybe an occassional monday or tuesday..but anyway.. I get in the house about 730ish..get ready for work...i always lay my clothing out the night before...so in the middle of getting ready i totally forgot i was logged into AIM on my Treo..so i get a message from the dude who i thought and still think he has a girlfriend/wife..but i digress...basically the back story on dude is: we met..sparks flew..he became attached..in and effort to combat this he pushed me away..i didn't invest anything more in him..he got mad..and lashed out...so every now and again i'll get messages from him talking bout he wanna do this and that...last night was one of those nights..Because of my bout with happy hour i was a bit tipsy and sleepy...i mustered enough strength to answer my phone..since it seems he calls from a different number each time...and before u cynics who read my blog say..then why answer the phone?... i have several side businesses and i pass my card out with my number on it...it may be money on the other end of that phone call..anyways...i said i'd call back after top model..that was a lie but i really didnt feel like getting into it (that's another blog..lying to keep the peace) So i watched part of the pussycat doll show...then i fell asleep..when i woke up this morning i saw i missed 8 activities on my phone..i checked my messages and received 2 from him...the second one talking about how i was supposed to call him back after my show went off at 9... and how he understood... what i dont understand is how can u demand time from someone u dont wanna be close too ? If u just wanna beat then that's another story..but he hit me with the i wanna see u one last time..u said that the last time...grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.... I swear I'm bout to join a nunnery... But i'll update you later on this...i know imma hear about this from him...so yeah

Another thing i wanna talk about is last minute niggas who call u to do something and get mad when u don't want to or u not available...not to sound too pompous but i try to max out my time and i have excellent time management skills...I overlap things because i know people will cancel plain and simple..nothing personal ..Respect the math...You have to ask 5 times to get 1 thing in some instances..so i'll overlap 5 things...

I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made

So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without the warmth from
A womans good, good heart

On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world

So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too [x3]
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The lyrics to this song are so simple but true...
girls ideals of love are wrapped around the relationship they have with their fathers..
a woman seeks a love comparable to the love to love they received in their adolescence...can it be that was the time we felt most secure..safe and loved.. But what of the Lil girls who grow up with out father's or loveless homes? Are they more apt to not find love and troll this earth bitter and loveless? I'm a testimony to not having a structures male prototype to shape my ideal of relationship but thru those i connected with in my youth i had positive role models...Models that showed me that love can be partnered and awesome if done right... But as i get older i think about those ideals and how realistic they are...i mean is it too much to wanna be married before u conceive a child? I have associates who are like marriages don't work..then what u finna do? i do realize they are giving me another prospective on something but i feel they are settling...being just baby mama's because their biological clock is pimpin them...*sigh*

Yo yo yo....ya girl is back....

Ya know when your down, people have the tendency to try to kick you lower or and to your sadness...Last week was filled with highs and lows..and about fri night i got some more bad news and then came the naysayers and crabs trying to drag me further..but i was determined not to let it happen...so i pepped myself up and carried on with the rest of my weekend...That may i say was lovely and refreshing...I am a bit disappointed I didn't make it to Philly to hang out with my folks but I'll be back the 20th!!! Easter was lovely..and the best thing about Easter is ham...yes folks i said it Ham!! swine!! I love ham during holidays... :) and now....from the single in the city files...

I logged onto my gmail this morning..and was hit by this guy i had went on a date with...I don't think i mentioned this here.. But i went out on a date with a hookup from a friend..a lawyer dude who was supposedly down to earth...so he comes to pick me up and we go to a local Ethiopian restaurant that is also a lounge..now from the moment we sat down till when we left this dude had a problem with his neck...which was he looked at erry ass in the place that passed by...and dude wasn't even slick about it... I jokingly mentioned it and he looked embarrassed but he continued on with it..so anyway needless to say the date went no where and i didn't see him again...he hits me on gmail chat like i missed you..where u been? I was like uh thanks..and he was like what happened to i miss you back? I was like ummm but it's not the truth...I'll admit i was a bit of an ass about it..but eh i don't owe dude anything.. In other news i got the sneaking suspicion that my ex crush will try to message me today...so we shall see.... also!!!! I got a new boo..hehehe so far he's a sweet..good guy..so yeah... sometimes the adage u are what u attract is not true....sometimes u get bad apples...

So much...so so so so much...Man here to begin....

It started Wed. I got the call that my bestfriend from highschool's brother passed away...Thur., I went to work...Fri...I took...and have been off every since. A mixture of emotional tiredness and just physically tired has fueled my need to be off for the rest of the week...This is life...Sun./Mon. where both great days filled with empowerment and well wishes...nothing but sisterly love and motivation...Career conference gave me the kick in the pants I need to really work my business (Mary Kay). I thogt i had alot of obstacles in my way..but as my granny said, "there are people in this world more worse off than yew!" After hearing several 'Istories," I decided to build and work on mines...

You ever have a crush? A long standing crush you never did anything about? Just lusted, giggled and imagined from afar...what life coud be like with this person...well folks! That shit is the truth...some crushes need to stay that...crushes from a far...turns out my crush (who internalizes everything) wasn't as great as i built him up to be over the years..and yes i bilt him up...and he was so beautifully human in every aspect..there's a part of me that wants to give people a chance and not be so skeptical but ya know when u have those inclinations sometimes you gotta take heed...Things were great..fine and dandy..but then ya know when i decided to call or text..my calls and texts went unanswered for days...and ya know i realize sometimes that networks trip...but it wasnt till i hung out with him that i realized..."he's just not that into you." And more importantly when a family member of theirs casually let me know he was still diddling his ex...eh i was over it and him...I wont change the way i act but no more flirting and lusty thoughts...the thing was i liked him and thought the thing was mutual..hell he may like me..but not as much hahahaha...*shrugs* At any rate it was a let down and i was so disappointed...u know how u really like someone and have all the intentions in the world that u want it to work..but to no avail...nothing..eh I don't know what i'mma do when he tries to see or hang out with me..i guess i should be honest but what for ya know? For once i'd like some mutual reciprocity...